My aim was to try to keep myself motivated throughout the first lock down in the March in the UK, but after months being confined to the home, it does affect ones own morale and way of seeing things, the reality hits when we realise that all the freedom we once had, is for an unknown specific time is restricted. The internet has become the place to lose hours of time, regardless where it leads to or even if nothing happens.
In the media we constantly hear how difficult it is for the arts, but in reality, the arts have always struggled, this has only highlighted the issue and how it has really affected those who were in main stream arts such as theatre and music venues, but the other area of arts, such as artists and performance artists continue to struggle through the maze of applications if they are lucky to get one, or the maze of possible events to perform at, that are now cancelled, grants have been drying up for some time. Personally I do not rely on grants, but work, save and use my own funds to travel, but sadly like everyone else I have lost half my income, so this will restrict me even further.
I am filled with appreciation of what I do have, and can happily survive, but not being a one to sit about, I have been looking at to apply for a ph.D to research Embodying the myth and the folklore of the rabbit. But since Universities are also affected, my application seems to have got lost some where, and with lack of communication, this leaves me in silence, so I have no idea what to focus on now.
However I still manage to perform the rabbit every month and turn up at events for free, and till keep up this website and facebook etc. I walk around my home feeling lost, but I keep asking myself "What can I do as an artists?" One thing I have been doing is creating installations in my front garden, as its right on a busy path, so I get lots of people passing, and can hear their comments through the window, this makes me smile.
We have had a second lock down, but now just before Christmas there are rumours of London going into a third Lock down! However there is a vacine that has been rolled out, but we will not know how effective this is until the New Year. Who knows what the future holds for me and my practice, and maybe its time to give it up and get an office job or packing shelves, who know, but since work has dried up and performances opportunities are scarce, then I feel flat at the prospects that lay ahead.
Spike Mclarrity is a duration based conceptual performance artist.